Kevin’s Entire Story
I wanted to become what my family, church, and school thought was ‘socially, and morally acceptable,” and that was the reason that I chose to attend Spring Arbor University. I thought ‘what better way am I going to be able to change myself than in a strong Christian environment?’ Little did I know that when I decided to attend Spring Arbor I set into a motion a chain of events that led me to be who I am today: a gay Christian man attending a Christian university.
It was the J-term of my freshman year walking down Chapel road with friends one night when I finally felt that I can be the person God created me to be in his loving image, and it was that night that I came out as gay. It is one of the hardest things that I have had to do so far in my life. It left me vulnerable and open to being hurt by people putting me down and rejecting me because of my sexuality. But over the last four years of being a student here I have grown to having a huge support group made up of faculty, staff, students and community members who have helped me to come out to my parents, and to everyone; by being there to pray for me and offer any support that they could.
But being a gay Christian is really hard to do at SAU. My faith has been tested primarily within the last two years here. I heard someone in the administration say “We do not have gay students, just students questioning”, a chapel speaker said the church should turn their back on me, I’ve been told “I am committing sin by choosing to be gay,” and I’ve read the many yik yak blasts. It was a combination of these things and more that have made me feel unsafe and uncomfortable at the university that I once loved. My faith has been shaken.
Over my four years here I have seen many changes that comfort me in the way that I see hearts and attitudes changing on campus. I know that a total change won’t be happening anytime soon but I do hope that one day I will be able to look back and see unconditional acceptance and love at SAU.